Thursday, December 11, 2008

Have I done this before?

No two parents are the same. And J & I are in total opposite directions some days I'm not even sure how we stay together. He must hate the fact that I'm so freaking anal about every little thing & I kinda get annoyed that he takes a more lackadaisical approach to parenting.

He was upset with me that I took the other night off from the gym because I didn't want to leave the girls with him & go when a) Annie was a little whiny, clingy & now because she probably has strep, sick. b) I can't just leave my kids with him every night. They need me home. That's my job.

J thinks I never take time to myself. Well, when you have 2 kids close to full time you don't have much choice in the matter. When they are grown then I'll get to do whatever I want, whenever I want. Until then, my job is to take them to school, help with their homework, fulfill their emotional needs, make dinner, clean their bathroom & all of that other fun shit.

My children are my greatest accomplishment. And, no, they aren't perfect by any means. (you've met them, right?) And his children are finding their own spot in my heart right there with my own children. The only difference is they aren't mine & what I say doesn't always go. And you know what?

It's okay.

I'm going to do my own thing with my children while coexisting with J & his children. If he wants his kids to sleep in or miss school because they are tired I will not say anything. And if I want to coddle my children for a night because they are emotional, I will. It's not a contest to see who raises better children. These are our lives. And we should just live them. One day I hope we can raise our children together, but we're just not there, yet.

/end really strange rant

1 comment:

Anita said...

so did you test postive or what holmes?

(and i find it highly amusing that my word verification is "Shitlest"