Thursday, November 6, 2008

Little wonders

I am one of those who believes in fate. In signs. In returns from the Universe. These are the moments that help create what ultimately becomes our life. And with twists & turns of fate we sometimes follow a path that was absolutely blocked previously. And it amuses me how I am following that path now.

I realize you have no idea what the fuck I'm talking about.

Dwight Yoakam sums it up for me best, "Baby, things change." Seriously, I have a song for everything. I do love that about me.

Anyways, I've been doing some self reflecting lately. Last year I was drowning at an astonishingly rapid rate & as a result I crawled back inside my shell. (Lovely Cancer reference, there) I'm coming out slowly, but surely. But this time I want to make sure the tide isn't right in front of me ready to suck me back out to sea.

I've come so far from living in that soul sucking nightmare that used to be my life. Have you ever had an emotional vampire? Try having a few of them. Wugh. I never saw any "happy ending" in sight. And that's probably because I was looking. And I know how cliché it sounds to say it, but I'll tell you anyways. When I stopped looking I found it.

And because eventually J will read this I just want him to know that I am so grateful for him. Hearts everywhere.

Click here for more information on those pesky emotional vampires.

4 comments:

Braided Diva said...

hi...I changed my blogy name. I can't be nonchalant enough ;)

ps...must...have...Coach purse!

Rachel said...

Yeah baby! WOOT for growth, woot for change, woot for love!

TEF said...

this was such a wonderful, heart felt post. It did my heart good!
x0x0x0

Casey said...

<3 you!