Lola has lost it.

I can't sleep. I have this new sudden fear that by going to sleep I put myself in danger of not waking up. And, now I have a phobia of dying. I'm pretty sure it's because I don't know if I believe in the after life, which I sometimes feel people make up to comfort themselves because they, too, have a fear of dying.

Long story short.

I'm a mess.

I'm fucked.

What the fuck?

I swear, I have lost it.