Our Swine Flu update

Both girls have been fever free for 12 hours. Knock on wood, but they may be beating this shit. I hope so, because I'm tired of not being able to love on them & they are tired of watching movies & coloring in their room. I just want to cuddle with them in my bed, but with this being so contagious I've had to keep my distance. Because let's be honest, if I got sick who is going to take care of this house? Snort.

So far, I'm still healthy. J is fine & so are the Boy & Lavagirl. I hope it stays that way!

I have had very little sleep, though. I'm up every 2 hours checking temps & giving out meds. The night before last I got 2 hours of sleep. So, since the girls are still sleeping I am going to go rest.

I leave you with this -

Fear of the Pig

This morning as I was explaining to J that Type A could be H1N1 I found myself spouting out a wealth of useless knowledge on the subject. And then, I started forming opinions... uh oh.

I now have it figured out. They don't test you specifically for H1N1 because they don't want to have reported cases of people who survive the swine flu. They like to wait until someone gets sick & hospitalized to test them for H1N1. This way they can publicize it all over the media how serious the swine flu can be. And, if they report all the people (like my 5 year old daughters) who probably do have it & are going to survive it just fine they won't be putting the FEAR OF THE PIG in to the world.

And it pisses me off. Yesterday I was so scared shitless that my kids were going to get so sick from the swine flu. Yes, they are sick. And no, we aren't taking lightly. But, they are in their room eating chips & watching a movie. Thing 2 has been fever free since 1am. But, I fully expect it to come back around, again. That's the sickness.

And guess what people? I'm probably going to get it. I have worn my mask, washed my hands, taken airborne, popped vitamins, sprayed the doorknobs with Lysol & dried my hands out with hand sanitizer. I have 4 more days to wait until I know for sure.

Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock.

H1N1, really.... TAKE 2

Thing 1 is now on her way to Urgent Care with the ex. Probable cause - Type A flu. Which means it is likely the swine flu.

Oh the joys.

H1N1, really.

Thing 2 tested positive for Type A flu today at the hospital. It's not definitely swine flu, but more than likely, yes. Apparently unless you are admitted they do not run a specific test.

Talk about being scared shitless.

Sigh.

Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day

If everyone lights a candle tonight at 7pm and keeps it burning for at least one hour, there will be a continuous wave of light over the entire world on Oct 15th, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. In loving memory of Kiara Isabelle who was born to heaven on January 31, 2003. And, love & light to every mother who has suffered a loss.

So mad I forgot to title.

I am so upset right now. And, I'm angry at J. He's accusing me of turning things in to a competition, but he's the one who does it. If I mention ANYTHING about his ex-wife he goes apeshit. But, I'm sorry. After this morning's incident I had to come home & say something to him.

We're all at the bus stop when EX-WIFE pulls up with the kids. The boy jumps out & Lavagirl does not. I go open the door & she's still eating breakfast. Her hair's a mess & her outfit is crumpled. Obviously, she just woke up. Unless you've been living under a rock you know that Lavagirl does not function well after just waking up. It takes her at least 1/2 hour to an hour to ditch the crabby attitude. Nothing wrong with that... it's just her. She will be very clingy in this time & this morning was no different.

She threw herself on the ground, stomped her feet & screamed for her mother who was trying to leave. EX-WIFE got out, hugged her & tried to leave again. It got worse & by this time the bus was waiting for Lavagirl to get on it. (Kindergarteners on first!) I looked at EX-WIFE as Lavagirl is screaming & said, "She can't get on the bus like this!" To which she responds, "She's fine!" & she puts her on the bus.

Sigh.

No child deserves to go to school upset. It's not fair. Do I know what is wrong with Lavagirl? I think so. She doesn't spend enough time with her mother. That & they don't wake up in enough time. Why is it so hard to get up at 7am??

J thinks I compare my ex's house to his ex's house & honestly, there is no competition. I do expect J to say something to his ex-wife about today's incident. If I do it I will lose my fucking cool because I would NEVER put my baby on a bus when they were that upset.

And, GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER WOMAN! You have your kids every other week. Suck it up, go to bed earlier & set your fucking alarm so they don't look like ragamuffins when they leave your fucking house.

/end rant

It's my day to volunteer in Lavagirl's class this morning. Hopefully she'll be in better spirits! Love, love, love.

Can you please come in...

at 10:45 next Friday for paper mache pumpkins?

Sorry for the short notice, but can you come in today at noon for PT Art? (it's 10:46am)

We need a computer lab volunteer. Can you do every Friday in October from 1-1:30?

Our class needs an art helper every Tuesday from 11:45-12:30. Are you available?

We started our centers. Can you be the Wednesday volunteer? It's every week from 9:30-10:30.

Snort.

The elementary should just give me an office & a paycheck.

The Big Decision

So, every week while the girls are in dance class I stroll down to the pet store in the same shopping plaza as the dance studio. A few weeks ago they got a litter of Australian Shepards. And I fell in love with them. I would come by once a week & pet them. Last week all 8 were still there & yesterday they were down to just 2!

The guy in the pet store asked me if I wanted to hold one. Of course I did! So, I put the little girl in my arms & we cuddled for 15 minutes... long enough to develop an attachment. Sigh.

I've already named her. Double sigh.

It took J about an hour to be convinced that a dog would be fine, but now I'm still convincing myself. I love dogs. I'd love to have one. I have time for a dog right now with my schedule. The kids would love a dog. Our house is only 2400 sq feet, but that's okay, right? Our backyard is not fenced, but we back to woods, have plenty of paths & sidewalks & I could use the exercise.

What happens if J & I broke up? Who would get the dog? What happens if the dog is untrainable like the two Boxer puppies J had when I met him? (those dogs were horrible!) What if J's cat hates the dog? What if the dog hates the cat? What do we do with her when we go out of town?

What if we just brought her home & she fit in perfectly with our family?

Decisions, decisions.

Tuesday, but it feels like Monday.

A couple of big deals.

After meeting with a pulmonary specialist yesterday, cancer has been ruled out! WAAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! J isn't going to die. Frolic.

The though of cancer maybe ruined our romantic weekend in Ocean City, MD. Add drinky to stressed & the romance just wasn't there. But, we had fun anyways.

I've finally been to Seacrets. And, now I know what all of the fuss is about. J picked up a pair of lovely 20-something year old sisters. I had a guy introduce J & I to his friends as the "coolest couple I've ever met!" We are pretty damn cool. And to the guy with the bra around your neck... YOU GO! The band actually played Toes. My sister would be so proud.

We're off to Philly in two weeks to hang out with some awesome twin moms. Should be fun.

Until next time!

Another edition of Friday's random thoughts

1. I had a spinach/cheddar scone from Whole Foods. It was delish!

2. I can't get in to my yahoo email. Weird.

3. J & I are still half sick & going to attempt our romantic getaway to Ocean City, MD this evening. We'll see who coughs first.

4. I am thinking of taking a nap. Snicker, snicker.

5. My next door neighbors have kissed & made up!

6. J & I still can't figure out who Jenette was.

10. Have a great weekend.